Galatians – About the Author

In order to understand my perspective of Galatians, one must understand my perspective of the author.  After all, I am attempting to put myself in the shoes of the author as much as possible, two thousand years later, in order to decipher one of his letters.  I was not raised with the beliefs I currently hold.  I was raised believing that The Church had essentially replaced Israel as the chosen people.  Therefore, I always read the Bible from that perspective.  After my revelation, when I read scripture, I viewed it through a different lens.  One significant conflict I had to work through when I read anything written by Paul, I struggled with inconsistency between what I was taught vs what I read on the page.  Prior to studying and consequently teaching Galatians for an adult Bible study, I decided to get to know Paul better and understand his character, personality, and attempt to reconcile seemingly contradictory statements he made.  There are numerous books written about Paul, of which I had not read until recently.  When formulating my understanding of Paul, I did so with an ESV bible and a lot of prayer.  Since that study, I found a great article written from the same perspective I developed on my own.

This is the result when we approach Paul from our side of the time line. We live after the triumph of Christianity and the final parting of ways between Jews and Christians. Paul did not. Yet we bring that post-Pauline framework with us when we read him. And that framework has determined how we read him—at least until a few decades ago, when a number of scholars began to offer a new view of Paul.

Consider what would happen if, for just a moment, we were to consider Paul’s letters from the other side of the time line, from Paul’s time instead of our own. What would happen if we threw into doubt the triumph of Christianity in Paul’s time, or even the notion of the final split between Jews and Christians?  Or—since we have started to ask tough questions about our assumptions—what would happen if we were to recall (here I am not inventing but simply describing) that in Paul’s time there was no Bible other than the Hebrew Bible, no New Testament, or even any idea of a New Testament, and no Christianity, or even any idea of Christianity? What difference would it make to our reading of Paul if we were to bring these assumptions, this framework with us when we read his letters? The result is not just a minor adjustment here or there on the fringes of the old image. What I and others have been arguing is that the old image, the image that has been 100 percent dominant from Paul’s day to our own, is 100 percent wrong, from top to bottom, from start to finish.

John G. Gager
Paul: Jewish Law and Early Christianity (p.6-7)
Biblical Archaeological Society

Gager’s position described my own when I was trying to reconcile inconsistencies between Paul’s letters.  To any believer, it is a requirement that scripture can not contradict itself.  Otherwise, we can not rely on it as an absolute truth to guide our lives.  If that is true, then how was it possible for Paul to make pro-law and anti-law statements?  How was it possible for Paul to write against the law, yet continue to observe the Sabbath, travel to Jerusalem for festivals, engage in a Nazarite vow of cleansing, and defend himself as law-abiding when accused otherwise?  Either my previous assumptions about Paul were wrong, or Paul was a complete hypocrite, speaking out of both sides of his mouth.

What if the last two thousand years of history and doctrine has adjusted our position of what Paul was attempting to say?  Is it possible that if we view Paul from a different lens, a lens from his perspective in history, that what Paul meant was completely removed from how his words are read today?  Prior to reading Gager’s position, I attempted to reconcile these questions on my own, simply by digging into scripture and finding what I considered to be contradictions.  I will not spend a lot of time here outlining the contradictions.  Instead, I am going to paint a picture of the Paul I found in scripture by seeking words from his pen and how some of Paul’s life was recorded by Luke in the book of Acts.

Paul authored nearly half of the New Testament books.  Romans, Corinthians, Galatians, Ephesians, Philippians, Colossians, Thessalonians, Timothy, Titus, Philemon.  It is easy to determine which letters Paul wrote because he introduced himself in the beginning of each one.

Now I am speaking to you Gentiles. Inasmuch then as I am an apostle to the Gentiles, I magnify my ministry (Romans 11:13 ESV)

To me, though I am the very least of all the saints, this grace was given, to preach to the Gentiles the unsearchable riches of Christ (Ephesians 3:8 ESV)

Arguably the father of many Christian church doctrines because he was the self-proclaimed apostle to the Gentiles and each of his letters ring a certain theme of teaching directed towards Gentiles.

I am not sure where I heard the claim that Saul’s name was changed to Paul after his vision of Yeshua as a method to separate himself from Judaism.  This subtle assumption may seem inconsequential, but it does provide a pinch of understanding that scripture can be misread so easily.  Acts 13:9 simply reads Saul, who was also called Paul. The simple understanding here is that in Hebrew, he would have been called Rav Sha’ul or Rabbi Saul.  Paul is the Greek equivalent of the name Saul in the same way that Yeshua is the Hebrew equivalent to Jesus in the Greek.  Odds are much higher that Paul referred to himself with his Greek name because his mission field was primarily Greek speaking territory. Other than the name he used or what we call him today, who was Paul?

I ask, then, has God rejected his people? By no means! For I myself am an Israelite, a descendant of Abraham, a member of the tribe of Benjamin.

Romans 11:1 (ESV)

Paul, being an Israelite of the tribe of Benjamin, was potentially named after King Saul, also from the tribe of Benjamin (1 Samuel 9:21).  Being named after King Saul is purely speculation, but would not be uncommon.

circumcised on the eighth day, of the people of Israel, of the tribe of Benjamin, a Hebrew of Hebrews; as to the law, a Pharisee;

Philippians 3:5 (ESV)

Now when Paul perceived that one part were Sadducees and the other Pharisees, he cried out in the council, “Brothers, I am a Pharisee, a son of Pharisees. It is with respect to the hope and the resurrection of the dead that I am on trial.” 

Acts 23:6 (ESV)

Paul was proud of who he was.   Clinging to his Pharisee status, with pride, well into his ministry.  It is important to recognize a common misconception among New Testament readers.  All Pharisees were not bad.  Pharisees, Sadducees and Essenes were different sects within Judaism.  Similar to Christian denominations, Judaism has sects which have different understandings of how to interpret or uphold scripture.  The common Christian understanding is that all Pharisees were bad because of the snapshot portrayed in scripture.  Being a Pharisee wasn’t bad in itself, in fact there are a few good examples in scripture.  That, however, is an entirely different topic which I may write about in the future.

“I am a Jew, born in Tarsus in Cilicia, but brought up in this city, educated at the feet of Gamaliel according to the strict manner of the law of our fathers, being zealous for God as all of you are this day.

Acts 22:3 (ESV)

Being trained by Rabbi Gamaliel would have been an incredible honor.  Rabbi Gamaliel was very well-known, highly influential, and to be a disciple of him would have meant Paul was extremely well-educated. (As an honorable mention, but unrelated to this post, do not forget that Gamaliel, although not a messianic believer, was a Pharisee and the voice of reason on the Sanhedrin that saved the Apostles.  Acts 5:34-39).

So the tribune came and said to him, “Tell me, are you a Roman citizen?” And he said, “Yes.” The tribune answered, “I bought this citizenship for a large sum.” Paul said, “But I am a citizen by birth.” So those who were about to examine him withdrew from him immediately, and the tribune also was afraid, for he realized that Paul was a Roman citizen and that he had bound him.

Acts 22:27-29 (ESV)

Historically, Roman citizenship meant high status. It could be obtained by being born in a Roman territory of parents that were citizens, serving in their military, adoption, or by purchasing the citizenship. Simply living or being born in a Roman territory did not grant citizenship.  The idea that Paul was born a citizen, and that his parents were Jewish, implies that someone in his lineage was able to purchase their citizenship.  His Roman citizenship probably held significance in respect to him being able to move and teach within these territories without as much fear of persecution.  As seen above, Roman citizens were not as susceptible to legal retribution or punishment.  Obviously this changed during the time of his ministry, but it allowed him to have a far-reaching effect.

Finally, I feel the need to establish a pattern of Paul’s character and obedience to God and the Torah (law).  I believe that this is the single most important key to reading Paul’s letters accurately.  One of the most argued positions regarding Paul’s letters is his stance on the law.

And when they heard it, they glorified God. And they said to him, “You see, brother, how many thousands there are among the Jews of those who have believed. They are all zealous for the law, and they have been told about you that you teach all the Jews who are among the Gentiles to forsake Moses, telling them not to circumcise their children or walk according to our customs. What then is to be done? They will certainly hear that you have come. Do therefore what we tell you. We have four men who are under a vow; take these men and purify yourself along with them and pay their expenses, so that they may shave their heads. Thus all will know that there is nothing in what they have been told about you, but that you yourself also live in observance of the law. (Acts 21:20-24 ESV)

But this I confess to you, that according to the Way, which they call a sect, I worship the God of our fathers, believing everything laid down by the Law and written in the Prophets (Acts 24:14 ESV)

Paul argued in his defense, “Neither against the law of the Jews, nor against the temple, nor against Caesar have I committed any offense.” (Acts 25:8)

Do we then overthrow the law by this faith? By no means! On the contrary, we uphold the law. (Romans 3:31)

So the law is holy, and the commandment is holy and righteous and good. (Romans 7:12 ESV)

For I delight in the law of God, in my inner being (Romans 7:22 ESV)

Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself serve the law of God with my mind, but with my flesh I serve the law of sin. (Romans 7:25 ESV)

Each passage above shows a consistent pattern of Paul defending the Torah.  Many readers have interpreted Paul’s writing to mean that the law was no longer required.  Many have even interpreted Paul’s writing to mean that the ceremonial portion of the law should not be observed.  Specifically Sabbath observance, dietary laws, and the biblical festivals.  I argue that Paul’s lesson is not that the law is no longer required, no longer important, or even no longer necessary.  I argue that Paul’s lesson is that salvation does not come through the law.  If one is capable of setting aside preconceived ideas about the grace vs law debate, and reading Paul’s letters from the perspective that Paul is teaching that salvation comes through grace, and not teaching against Torah observance, scripture makes a lot more sense.

Consider this point:  If Paul truly taught against observing the law or in some way was attempting to teach that Torah observance was not required, not necessary, or even worse, should be abandoned, isn’t Paul the biggest liar and hypocrite?  Consider the conflicting message.  In several passages, Paul defends the law.  Luke recorded in Acts, Paul defending himself, claiming to follow the law.  James, also recorded in Acts, believed and defended to others that Paul lived according to the law.  Paul himself, in Romans claims the law is holy and should be upheld.  Either Paul was lying and had others fooled, or Paul truly maintained Torah observance.  Scripture simply will not contradict itself.

but they went on from Perga and came to Antioch in Pisidia. And on the Sabbath day they went into the synagogue and sat down. (Acts 13:14 ESV)

As they went out, the people begged that these things might be told them the next Sabbath. (Acts 13:42 ESV)

And Paul went in, as was his custom, and on three Sabbath days he reasoned with them from the Scriptures (Acts 17:2 ESV)

And he reasoned in the synagogue every Sabbath, and tried to persuade Jews and Greeks. (Acts 18:4 ESV)

but we sailed away from Philippi after the days of Unleavened Bread, and in five days we came to them at Troas, where we stayed for seven days. (Acts 20:6 ESV)

For Paul had decided to sail past Ephesus, so that he might not have to spend time in Asia, for he was hastening to be at Jerusalem, if possible, on the day of Pentecost. (Acts 20:16 ESV)

Several references that Luke recorded throughout the book of Acts provide evidence that Paul observed the Sabbath and made the festivals a priority for his travel.   All of this must be taken into consideration when reading Paul’s letters.

From my perspective, by reading scripture, Paul was a well-educated Jewish man, from a proud Pharisaic family, trained by the prominent Rabbi Gamaliel, who loved God, and forsook all that he had to carry out a mission spreading the gospel to the nations.  He lived a Torah observant life and refuted anyone that accused otherwise.

I repeat Peter’s warning that Paul is difficult to understand and his words easily twisted.

And count the patience of our Lord as salvation, just as our beloved brother Paul also wrote to you according to the wisdom given him,  as he does in all his letters when he speaks in them of these matters. There are some things in them that are hard to understand, which the ignorant and unstable twist to their own destruction, as they do the other Scriptures.  You therefore, beloved, knowing this beforehand, take care that you are not carried away with the error of lawless people and lose your own stability.

2 Peter 3:15-17 (ESV)

When deciphering anything that Paul wrote, I will maintain the assumption that Paul was Torah observant and would have expected his readers to know that.  He also would not have been hypocritical and taught contrary to his lifestyle.

Galatians – Introduction

About a year ago I started waking up about 3 am every morning and was unable to sleep.  I felt wide awake, but frustrated knowing my alarm would go off in a couple of hours.  I would dread the sound of the alarm and would dwell on the thought of how tired I was going to be.  Each night, for three or four nights, I would toss and turn trying to will myself to sleep.  I couldn’t shut my brain off.  I couldn’t stop thinking about Paul’s letter to the Galatians.  This seemed odd to me since I had not really paid much attention to it before.  After a few days, I finally succumbed to the thoughts, crept downstairs, and started reading Paul’s letter.  I think I read it a two or three times.

I had an overwhelming feeling that I needed to teach this letter to the adult Sunday School class from as much of a Jewish perspective as I could figure out. To teach a class, in a church that I was not a member, that does not embrace this perspective at all, seemed like a crazy and disrespectful thing to do.  Yet, I found myself in the pastor’s office explaining my idea.  I fully expected to be asked to step down from teaching or at the very least have this idea turned down.  To my surprise he agreed to have me teach from this perspective.  This led to about a 4 months study of the letter.  Most of which was very much outside of my knowledge spectrum and comfort zone.

I was still trying to understand what Hashem had revealed to me just a few months earlier regarding the Jewish roots and perspective of all scripture.  I had been listening to some audio teaching by D. Thomas Lancaster from Beth Immanuel Sabbath Fellowship.  I remember listening to some of his series on Galatians, but I don’t remember anything standing out significantly that would cause me to have a burning desire to teach a class.

I spent several hours studying each week, sometimes toiling over one word that would have me stuck.  I remember writing a lesson two different times, and just feeling like it didn’t make sense.  I don’t remember how I learned this, but I learned that the original text would not have included quotes so the translators added the quotation marks based on their understanding of where they should go.  Comparing multiple translation versions, the quotation marks were in different places.  I had a eureka moment.  I can still remember telling my wife what I found about quotation marks while she looked at me like I had lost my mind and asked if she was going to have to sit through Sunday School class and listen to a study about where quotation marks belonged.

And count the patience of our Lord as salvation, just as our beloved brother Paul also wrote to you according to the wisdom given him,  as he does in all his letters when he speaks in them of these matters. There are some things in them that are hard to understand, which the ignorant and unstable twist to their own destruction, as they do the other Scriptures.  You therefore, beloved, knowing this beforehand, take care that you are not carried away with the error of lawless people and lose your own stability.

2 Peter 3:15-17 (ESV)

Peter provided a warning that Paul’s letters were hard to understand and were easily twisted.  My goal was to study as much as I could from a historical and contextual perspective.  Instead of viewing Paul’s letter(s) through the lens of 2,000 years of Christian theology, I worked hard to view his writing from the perspective of a first century reader.  I recognize that Paul wrote the majority of the New Testament and that his letters are the basic foundation for many Christian church doctrines. My intent is not to offend anyone or to incite anger.  It is only to explain the  perspective that came to me while I was teaching this class.  At the time I taught this class, I did not feel qualified.  I still do not feel qualified and imagine that over time some of my understanding may change.  I chose not to use any single study guide when teaching this class.  It was me, Hashem, a cup of coffee (or several), my English Standard Bible, and the internet.

The notes I have are currently written in outline format designed as a study guide for a Sunday School class.  I will be reformatting each lesson and posting these periodically.  If you’re like me, you probably have your cup of coffee and a bible close by.

I welcome your thoughts, whether you agree or not.

Faith vs Trust

Faith and Trust: Each are five letters and both have significant meaning.  Related to each other, yet very different. When I used a common search engine to search for the term “having faith” the first result seemed simple enough.

“Faith means relying on God” by Rick Warren (link to devotion)

I am not here to agree or disagree with Rick Warren.  However, I think that simple phrase, by such a popular Christian teacher, is an excellent example of unintentional confusion.  Rick Warren is not the first to define faith in that way.  Mirriam-Webster first definition of faith is “strong belief or trust in someone or something.”  How do the scriptures define faith?

Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.

Hebrews 11:1 ~ ESV

The author of Hebrews defined faith as an assurance or conviction.

What good is it, my brothers, if someone says he has faith but does not have works? Can that faith save him?  If a brother or sister is poorly clothed and lacking in daily food, and one of you says to them, “Go in peace, be warmed and filled,” without giving them the things needed for the body, what good is that? So also faith by itself, if it does not have works, is dead.  But someone will say, “You have faith and I have works.” Show me your faith apart from your works, and I will show you my faith by my works.  You believe that God is one; you do well.  Even the demons believe – and shudder!  

James 2:14-19 ~ ESV

James defines faith as belief and separates that belief from the evidence of works.

I wrote earlier that Rick Warren’s statement is an example of unintentional confusion.  If we turn to scripture to define faith for us, I’ve given two examples which define faith as a belief, assurance, or conviction.  Faith is better defined as a feeling and not defined as an action in those two examples.  The unintentional confusion is that the word faith has been elevated to a meaning beyond its intended origin.  By unintentionally assuming that faith is enough, one must remember that James warned that even the demons believe.

Most of us have seen a video or perhaps even participated in a trust fall exercise.  One person stands with their eyes closed and falls backwards trusting their partner behind them to catch them.  I recently saw a video in which a woman was standing on a platform about three feet off of the ground, with no one else around.  She turned around, closed her eyes and started counting down.  As she counted, people came quietly out of hiding and lined up behind her and linked arms.  When she reached zero, she fell backwards, trusting her team would be there even though she hadn’t seen them arrive.

Applying the definition from Hebrews and James, the woman had faith before she fell backwards.  She could not see her team, yet she believed they were there.   She could have said, “I know you are there and thank you for being willing to catch me,” and ended the exercise.  Of course, the intent of the exercise is not faith, but trust.

In the Hebrew language the words emunah and bitachon are used to explain faith and trust.

The Rambam defines emunah as the knowledge that Hashem created and continues to run all of Creation.

Bitachon, however, is quite different. Bitachon means trust. The Chovos HaLevavos defines bitachon as relying on Hashem, trusting Hashem. It is a sense of depending on Him to watch over and protect me.

Amazingly, a person can have emunah and not bitachon. He can know that Hashem runs the world, but not necessarily trust in Him.

The Difference Between Emunah and Bitachon
Rabbi Ben Tzion Shafier
Orthodox Union

I highly doubt that Rabbi Shafier would have used the New Testament letter from James as the basis for his definition, however, their thought processes are similar.  Rabbi Shafier explains that a person can have faith in Hashem, but not necessarily trust in Him.  This has a very similar undertone to what James wrote by segregating the two.  Even the demons believe in Hashem, but they certainly do not trust in Him.

In my earlier example, if the woman had stopped counting, and simply proclaimed, “I know you are there and thank you for being willing to catch me,” she would have exercised faith without trust.  It is obvious to us as we read this that had she only expressed faith, it is impossible for us to believe in that faith because faith can not be seen.  She proved her faith by showing trust through action.  Perhaps a better explanation of trust is the physical manifestation of one’s faith.

As I was preparing to write this post, I prayed for guidance, as I try to do each time I sit down to study.  An immediate thought that came to mind was the trust needed for the Israelites as they fled from Pharaoh’s army.

The Children of Israel came within the sea on dry land; and the water was a wall for them, on their right and on their left.

Exodus 15:22
Stone Edition Artscroll English Tanach

Put yourself in the sandals of the Israelites for a moment.  You’re standing at the bank of a large body of water.  Large enough that the rest of the story explains it took all night for Israel to cross the dry sea bed.  As these people cross through a dry land passage way, water standing tall to their left and right, held only by the power of God.  Israel trusted that God would hold the waters for them as they passed.

When this story came to my mind, I was unsure if it was a good example to use.  After all, shortly before Israel walked across a dry sea bed, they cried out to Hashem and asked Moses if he brought them to the wilderness only to die because there were not enough graves in Egypt.  I thought of this as a complete lack of faith so soon after they had been able to walk out of Egypt carrying their plunder of gold and silver.

I decided to turn to a search engine and sought to find if bitachon was used in any scripture.

Avoteinu trusted in Thee; they had bitachon, and Thou didst deliver them. They cried unto Thee, and were delivered; they had bitachon in Thee, and were not disappointed.

Tehillim 22:5-6 ~ Orthodox Jewish Bible

In you our fathers trusted; they trusted, and you delivered them.  To you they cried and were rescued; in you they trusted and were not put to shame.

Psalm 22:4-5 ~ ESV

It felt like a confirmation that I was on the right path of understanding.  I am unsure if David was thinking of Israel crying out just before they ran into the dry sea bed, or if he was thinking of when they cried out initially while still in Egypt.  If I had to guess, he was probably speaking of the latter.  However, I believe my example still holds value.  To walk on a dry sea bed, through a corridor of two giant walls of water, with nothing holding it back, took tremendous trust that the water would not fall.  Bitachon.

How do we apply this today?  First, we need to redefine faith as belief and hold trust as the higher principle.  Scripture has given us the definitions we should use, so we should not deviate.  James, David, and the author of Hebrews have given us great examples.

Faith is a feeling.  Trust is action showing proof of faith.


Luke explains, “A large crowd of His disciples, and a great throng of people … had come to hear Him and to be healed of their diseases; and those who were troubled with unclean spirits were being cured” (Luke 6:17–18).

Luke prefaces the sermon by distinguishing between the large crowd and the disciples, just like Matthew does. Luke says, “Turning His gaze toward His disciples, He began to say …” (Luke 6:20). In these words, Luke indicates that Yeshua delivered the sermon to His disciples, not to the crowds. Matthew explains that He first withdrew from the crowd by ascending the hill.

This story indicates that Rabbi Yeshua had two kinds of followers: the crowds of people and the disciples. Which kind of follower do you want to be? Are you one of the crowd that flocks around Him to receive a miracle, a blessing, or a ticket to heaven? Or are you one of His students, eager to learn His teachings and every word that comes from His mouth?

Two Kinds of Followers
First Fruits of Zion

When I received this weekly email teaching, it was one that really challenged me to look at myself in the mirror.  Would I be one of those Yeshua turned to address? Am I one of the crowd that listens but doesn’t transition from crowd to disciple?

“Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.” (Matthew 28:19-20 ESV)

Arguably one of Yeshua’s most quoted phrases by the evangelical Christian movement.  I would even go so far to say that these words have been the driving force behind global Christian growth for the last two millenniums.

Am I disciple? Am I a good disciple?  More importantly, would Yeshua consider me a disciple or part of the crowd?  If I self evaluate, I’d say I rank fairly low on the scale based on how well I follow his complete instruction, “to observe all that I have commanded you.”

The Greek text of Matthew used matheteuo.

Cognate: 3100 mathēteúō (from 3101 /mathētḗs, “disciple”) – to disciple, i.e. helping someone to progressively learn the Word of God to become a matured, growing disciple (literally, “a learner,” a true Christ-follower); to train (develop) in the truths of Scripture and the lifestyle required, i.e. helping a believer learn to be a disciple of Christ in belief and practice. See 3101(mathētēs).

~Strong’s definition listed on

I am not a Greek or Hebrew scholar and to claim that I am even familiar is a complete stretch.  However, I  do seek out the origin of words, at times, to search for clues of the intended meaning.  With a little reading, I found that there’s an entirely different controversy surround the Hebrew version of this passage in Matthew compared to the Greek text, but I won’t dig into that controversy here.

Notice the key words above as to train (develop) in the truths of Scripture and the lifestyle required.  If Yeshua meant what he said in the literal sense to teach others the lifestyle required, this rings a familiar tone with the familiar count the cost of discipleship passage.

“Whoever does not bear his own cross and come after me cannot be my disciple. For which of you, desiring to build a tower, does not first sit down and count the cost, whether he has enough to complete it? Otherwise, when he has laid a foundation and is not able to finish, all who see it begin to mock him, saying, ‘This man began to build and was not able to finish.’ Or what king, going out to encounter another king in war, will not sit down first and deliberate whether he is able with ten thousand to meet him who comes against him with twenty thousand? And if not, while the other is yet a great way off, he sends a delegation and asks for terms of peace. So therefore, any one of you who does not renounce all that he has cannot be my disciple.” (Luke 14:28-33 ESV)

It seems that Yeshua had expectations for his disciples.  These expectations must have been the distinguishing factor between being one in the crowds or one he considered a disciple.

It is important to remember that Yeshua was not unique in his role as a rabbi.  As a rabbi in that era, his expectations would not have been out of the ordinary compared to any other rabbi.

Children began their study at age 4-5 in Beth Sefer (elementary school). Most scholars believe both boys and girls attended the class in the synagogue. The teaching focused primarily on the Torah, emphasizing both reading and writing Scripture. Large portions were memorized and it is likely that many students knew the entire Torah by memory by the time this level of education was finished.

The best students continued their study (while learning a trade) in Beth Midrash (secondary school) also taught by a rabbi of the community. Here they (along with the adults in the town) studied the prophets and the writings (3) in addition to Torah and began to learn the interpretations of the Oral Torah (4) to learn how to make their own applications and interpretations much like a catechism class might in some Churches today. Memorization continued to be important because most people did not have their own copy of the Scripture so they either had to know it by heart or go to the synagogue to consult the village scroll.

A few (very few) of the most outstanding Beth Midrash students sought permission to study with a famous rabbi often leaving home to travel with him for a lengthy period of time. These students were called talmidim (talmid, s.) in Hebrew, which is translated disciple. There is much more to a talmid than what we call student. A student wants to know what the teacher knows for the grade, to complete the class or the degree or even out of respect for the teacher. A talmid wants to be like the teacher, that is to become what the teacher is. That meant that students were passionately devoted to their rabbi and noted everything he did or said. This meant the rabbi-talmid relationship was a very intense and personal system of education. As the rabbi lived and taught his understanding of the Scripture his students (talmidim) listened and watched and imitated so as to become like him. Eventually they would become teachers passing on a lifestyle to their talmidim.

Rabbi and Talmidim
Follow the Rabbi

We know that Paul was “educated at the feet of Gamaliel according to the strict manner of the law of our fathers,” (Acts 22:3) which must have been considered a high honor since Gamaliel was a member of the Sanhedrin and a well-known rabbi.

It is easy to establish that being a disciple had expectations.  I would argue that the expectations were well beyond our understanding of being a disciple today.  It seems that students started at early school age and continued in a dedicated lifestyle of learning with the elite often leaving home to learn.  Even in reading through the gospels, we do not see the apostles visiting Yeshua.  They literally and physically followed him for the three years of his ministry.

If that is the standard of being a disciple, not just of Yeshua, but of any rabbi at the time, then, again, I can’t help but rank myself in comparison to these examples.

Am I worthy to be called a disciple? Or am I simply in the crowd?

Oneness is not Sameness

It seems fitting that for one of my first posts, I should start with a subject that best defines the position I hold with regard to the position I hold.  You do not have to re-read that.  I repeated myself intentionally.  I am going to try and explain the position I hold in regards to what I believe about the position I hold, which is the place I occupy within God’s kingdom.

I spent some time in my first post giving some background on how I arrived at this point in my life.  I’m still very new on the journey of labeling my religious identity, which sounds awkward when written that way.  I read terms like Hebrew Roots, One Law, Two House, Messianic Judaism, Messianic Gentile, and can’t help but wonder where I’ve  been for so long that I thought the only denomination wars were about Baptist, Assembly of God, Lutheran, Methodists, etc.

What seems to me as the basic, fundamental explanation for my understanding is that oneness is not sameness.  I am confident I did not coin this phrase, however, I do not remember where I first heard it.  After an internet search, I did not find any sites that I had visited that used the term, however, there were plenty of findings from the search engine to choose from.

The original inspiration for this study actually came from a sermon I heard at the church I attend.  The pastor was teaching from 1 Peter and identifying the audience as predominately Gentile Christians, spread throughout Asia.  A blogger I follow regularly, MyMorningMeditations, recently posted about a similar sermon.  In an email conversation with the author, he encouraged me to post my findings in a blog.  I was humbled by his suggestion, but already contemplating the decision so start blogging, I decided it was a good nudge.

The overwhelming agreement among Christian writers is that Peter was writing to Christian believers that were scattered in Asia.  I agree.  However, the piece that I firmly disagree with is that he wrote to all Christian believers.  I believe he wrote specifically to Jewish Christian believers.  This is where many get confused.  Most Gentile Christians consider all believers as one in the same.  Contrary, I believe there are far too many scriptural references that Jewish and Gentile believers have different roles and responsibilities.  Oneness is not sameness.

Peter spends almost all of the first two chapters of this letter describing his intended readers.  It appears that he is reminding them of the tremendous people that they are, and of the promises God has given them.  It feels almost like a coach talking to his team in the locker room after they are feeling like the other team is winning and the coach is reminding them of all the adversity they have overcome and that they can endure the second half to claim victory.

 To those who are elect exiles of the Dispersion in Pontus, Galatia, Cappadocia, Asia, and Bithynia, according to the foreknowledge of God the Father, (1 Peter 1:1-2 ESV)

 The term elect exiles of the Dispersion was a term used to describe Jewish people that had left Jerusalem to live in the Diaspora.

 Strong’s definition of dispersion: scattering abroad of seed by the sower, hence: dispersion, used especially of the Jews who had migrated and were scattered over the ancient world.

At the end of verse 2, Peter used the phrase, according to the foreknowledge of God.  If Peter is referring to the foreknowledge (prophecy) of God, it is impossible to continue reading his letter with any accuracy unless we identify what foreknowledge Peter referred to.

And I will scatter you among the nations, and I will unsheathe the sword after you, and your land shall be a desolation, and your cities shall be a waste. (Leviticus 26:33 ESV)

And the Lord will scatter you among all peoples, from one end of the earth to the other, and there you shall serve other gods of wood and stone, which neither you nor your fathers have known. (Deuteronomy 28:64 ESV)

  I scattered them among the nations, and they were dispersed through the countries. (Ezekiel 36:19 ESV)

 Though I scattered them among the nations, yet in far countries they shall remember me, and with their children they shall live and return. (Zechariah 10:9 ESV)

 In that day the root of Jesse, who shall stand as a signal for the peoples, of him shall the nations inquire, and his resting place shall be glorious.  In that day the Lord will extend his hand  yet a second time to recover the remnant that remains of his people, from Assyria, from Egypt, from Pathros, from Cush, from Elam, from Shinar, from Hamath, and from the coastlands of the sea. He will raise a signal for the nations and will assemble the banished of Israel, and gather the dispersed of Judah from the four corners of the earth.  (Isaiah 11:10-12 ESV)

It should be noted that this theme is consistent throughout prophecy. There are other verses throughout the Tanach (Old Testament) that prophesied Israel would be scattered, but I’ve only chosen a few as examples.

 As obedient children, do not be conformed to the passions of your former ignorance, but as he who called you is holy, you also be holy in all your conduct, since it is written, ‘You shall be holy, for I am holy.’ And if you call on him as Father who judges impartially according to each one’s deeds, conduct yourselves with fear throughout the time of your exile, knowing that you were ransomed from the futile ways inherited from your forefathers, not with perishable things such as silver or gold, but with the precious blood of Christ, like that of a lamb without blemish or spot. (1 Peter 1:14-19 ESV)

Peter continues to relate to his intended audience by using Tanach references that reference their identity.  There is a lot to unpack in the passage above.

First, Peter quotes the quotes the Torah in verse 16, You shall be holy, for I am holy.

 You shall be holy to me for I the Lord am holy and have separated you from the peoples, that you should be mine. (Leviticus 20:26 ESV)

God, speaking to the people of Israel, is giving them instruction on how to be a nation, distinguished from other people, by keeping themselves holy.  My bible footnote claims that Peter was quoting a different passage in Leviticus 11:44. That reference doesn’t make sense because, in Leviticus 11, God is giving instruction about staying holy in reference to clean and unclean food, which is not relevant to the topic Peter is discussing.  Leviticus 20:22-26 is a paragraph identifying Israel as a separated people among all the people of the earth, which better fits the theme of Peter’s letter, which is staying faithful to God while dispersed in exile among non-believers.

Peter put a time limit, all be it unknown, on the exile, throughout the time of your exile, which supports the prophetic writings that that there will be a time of exile and in God’s timing call Jews home again to Israel.  Many would argue that we are seeing prophecy fulfilled now, with Jews from around the world are making aliyah and returning home.

The next phrase, ransomed from the futile ways inherited from your forefathers,  has to be a reference to Jewish forefathers.  That is only a term used, up to the point which Peter wrote this letter, by Jews when referencing their lineage.  I am not aware of any verse in which the term is used in reference to Gentile forefathers, whom had no relationship with God as a people group.

And finally, for this particular passage, not with perishable things such as silver or gold, but with the precious blood of Christ, Peter is contrasting the original context of the idea that a ransom was an atonement.  In Exodus 30:12, God told Moses that they

each shall give a ransom (atonement) for his life to the Lord when you number them, that there be no plague among them when you number them.  (Exodus 30:12 ESV)

The Stone Edition Tanach translates the word ransom as atonement.  The basis of a ransom or an atonement was part of Jewish culture and history.

All flesh is like grass and all it’s glory like the flower of grass.  The grass withers, and the flower falls, but the word of the Lord remains forever. (1 Peter 1:24-25 ESV)

The entire quote in context:

Comfort, comfort my people, says your God. Speak tenderly to Jerusalem, and cry to her that her warfare is ended, that her iniquity is pardoned, that she has received from the Lord’s hand double for all her sins.  A voice cries; “In the wilderness prepare the way of the Lord; make straight in the desert a highway for our God.  Every valley shall be lifted up, and every mountain and hill will be made low; the uneven ground shall become level, and the rough places a plain.  And the Glory of the Lord shall be revealed, and all the Flesh shall see it together, for the mouth of the Lord has spoken.”

A voice says, “Cry!” And I said, “What shall I cry?”  All flesh is grass, and all its beauty is like the flower of the field. The grass withers, the flower fades when the breath of the Lord blows on it; surely the people are grass.  The grass withers, the flower fades, but the word of our God will stand forever. (Isaiah 40:1-8 ESV)

Peter may have only quoted Isaiah 40:6-8, but like today when someone quotes a passage, the intent is to understand the context of the entire passage.  First, it is important to know that Isaiah 40 starts the prophecy of a messianic redemption and an end to Israel’s exile.  Peter knew this and knew his readers would have known this.  Second, Peter is reminding his readers that the word of our God will stand forever, in other words, God’s promises and covenant with Israel will not be forgotten.

Each of these historical references are meaningless to Gentiles.  Gentiles would know these only as stories, at best, but not as their own forefathers or from a historical basis for which an entire nation was born.  Why would Peter use such references to Gentiles when the meaning had nothing to do with their history or ancestry?  That logic simply doesn’t have a trail to follow.

Understanding that Peter, and Israel, hold to the promise that God’s word and covenant is forever, we as Gentiles, must recognize that this is the hope that they, as a chosen people, based their lives on.  This is what drives Israel to never give up on their land.  This is what drives them to stay true to their Torah roots after over 5,000 years.  This promise is just as instinctive to them as breathing.

 As you come to him, a living stone rejected by men put in the sight of God chosen and precious, you yourselves like living stones are being built up as a spiritual house, to be a holy priesthood, to offer spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ. (1 Peter 2:4-5 ESV)

After this passage, Peter goes on to quote Psalm 118:22.  I would encourage you to read all of Psalm 118 to understand the context of what we are reading here.  Like us today, that search for context within passages written, the writers of the New Testament (or Old Testament for that matter) would quote from older scripture based on the context of the entire passage.  Psalm 118 is a beautiful poem about God’s love for Israel lasting forever and the future messianic redemption.  Again, though, remember the context that this was written by David to and about Israelites, further establishing that Peter is identifying to the readers through Tanach scriptures.

 But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his own possession, that you may proclaim the excellencies of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light.  Once you were not a people, but now you are God’s people; once you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy. (1 Peter 2:9-10 ESV)

 Because Peter has repeatedly referenced the Torah in his letter, it only makes sense to reflect upon the Torah again to determine where Peter would have come up with such a spectacular description of the people he is writing to.

Now therefore, if you will indeed obey my voice and keep my covenant, you shall be my treasured possession among all peoples, for all earth is mine; and you shall be to me a kingdom of priests and a holy nation. These are the words that you shall speak to the people of Israel. (Exodus 19:5-6 ESV)

 Then bring near to you Aaron your brother, and his sons with him, from among the people of Israel, to serve me as priests – Aason and Aaron’s sons, Nadab and Abihu, Eleazar and Ithamar. {omission from chapter 28 regarding the priestly garments}…This shall be a statue forever for him and for his offspring after him. (Exodus 28:1 & the last half of Exodus 28:43 ESV)

For you are a people holy to the Lord your God.  The Lord your God has chosen you to be a people for his treasured possession, out of all the peoples who are on the face of the earth. It was not because you were more in number than any other people that the Lord set his love on you and chose you, for you were the fewest of all peoples, but it is because the Lord loves you and is keeping the oath that he swore to your fathers, that the Lord has brought you out with a mighty hand and redeemed you from the house of slavery, from the hand of Pharaoh king of Egypt.  Know therefore that the Lord your God is God, the faithful God who keeps covenant and steadfast love with those who love him and keep his commandments, to a thousand generations. (Deuteronomy 7:6-9 ESV)

 It could not be more clear that Peter is reminding his readers of multiple references within the Torah of God’s original covenant with Israel.  These references were specific to Jews.

In chapter 2, verse 12 Peter wrote, Keep your conduct among the Gentiles honorable.  If he were writing to Gentiles, why would he use that wording?  He would only have needed to write, “Keep your conduct honorable.”

I titled this post Oneness is not Sameness for a reason.  It is perfectly reasonable to accept that within a church body, not all have the same purpose.  One very well known passage is the 1 Corinthians 12 passage in which Paul is using the human body as a metaphor for the body of believers.  It seems easy to read that passage and understand that some are called to teach, some to preach, some to heal, some to be prophets, etc.  However, for some reason, I have found that it is very difficult for traditional Christians to accept that Jews and Gentiles are different within the kingdom.  We have different roles and responsibilities, which is perfectly acceptable in a church, but for some reason causes confusion or irritation when in context with Jews and Gentiles.  Even within Israel as a nation, each tribe had different roles.  For example, the Levites were set apart as priests, and the Benjamites were specialized as warriors.  That did not mean the other tribes had a lesser role or were in some way second class citizens.  Each tribe had a role.

Consider the scenario that you’re attending a church when the pastor stands up to read a letter from whatever conference that church belongs.  The letter is addressed to the elders and leadership of the church to address some overall concerns within the parent conference regarding how elders and leaders have been conducting themselves.  Within that letter is a series of encouraging statements, and positions of how to conduct oneself as an elder or leader with scriptural references.  The pastor chooses to read the letter to the whole congregation as a matter of transparency and to encourage the whole congregation to understand the role of the elders and leaders.  Just because the letter is read to the whole congregation, does that mean all of the congregation is now an elder or leader within that church?  That is an absurd thought.  The letter was written to the elders and leaders with a specific topic in mind, and only read to the whole congregation in the spirit of love, encouragement, and transparency.  Peter wrote a letter to the Jewish believers in a synagogue, encouraging them to stay strong in their commitment to God and to remember the promises God has given them.  That letter is just now being read, out of context, by non-Jews, attempting to hijack these promises as their own.

Up to this point, I have been fairly neutral in my position only working to prove that Peter was writing to Jews and not Gentiles, which seems harmless and not that big of a deal.  Here’s where the rubber meets the road for me.  The finer point I am making, is that Peter did not refer to all believers as a chosen people or royal priesthood.  He gave this honor and responsibility to Israel.  He did not replace the promise from God to Israel as a chosen and holy nation, with a promise from God to all believers as a “spiritual Israel.”  I firmly believe that if we choose to seek and honor God through faith, love, and obedience, whether Jew or Gentile, we will be welcomed in his kingdom.  However, I do not believe that the covenant with Israel was replaced by a covenant with all believers as one spiritual assembly.

Israel is and was always the chosen nation and people.  Fortunately Gentiles were and are given an opportunity to belong to the kingdom, but not through a covenant relationship.  I already anticipate that some will read this and be outraged.  Some will read this and realize it is incomplete.  I already sense future posts regarding Paul’s message about being grafted in and adopted citizens.

How did I get here?

For many, this is unnecessary background information on me.  Some may even consider me as self centered for thinking my own story is worthy of posting so publically.  The beauty of blogging is that I get to decide what I want to write and anyone reading this can determine to skip over it or follow along.  I decided that to provide some history on how I got to the place I am today could help someone that might stumble into a similar place.  When my journey took a sharp right turn without warning, I spent a lot of time scouring the internet for others like me trying to not feel alone.  If you don’t enjoy the story, find it boring, or just can’t relate, no hard feelings.  If you enjoy the story or even better, can relate, I’m glad you found this page, however you stumbled upon it.

At around 9 years old, an aunt offered to take me to a church camp for a week over the summer that she was working as a camp counselor.  I’m sure my parents were thrilled to have me occupied for an entire week.  I don’t remember much about that week at camp, but I do remember during the Wednesday afternoon chapel service, the pastor said something that scared me.  I couldn’t tell you what he said, but I still play the video in my head of me laying on my bunk after that chapel service waiting for dinner.  I was crying, scared, and said to God, “Please save me.  I don’t want to go to that other place. {I thought saying hell was a curse word}  I want Jesus to save me and live in my heart.”

I didn’t have the courage to go in front of the whole tent during chapel time.  Because I didn’t have the courage, I thought I did it wrong.  I felt as if all of the other kids knew what was going on and I was the weird one that was going to that other place and I didn’t want to be the impostor.  On the last day of camp, I vaguely remember the pastor asking all of the kids to raise their hands that had asked Jesus into their hearts.  I saw several hands raise so I didn’t feel left out to raise my own.  After chapel, my aunt rushed over to me and hugged me and was so excited and proud.  I didn’t really understand but I knew I did something right.

Upon returning home, my dad went to talk to the pastor about what happened to me, returned home, dumped all of his beer and alcohol down the kitchen sink and our family changed.  We were baptized as a family shortly thereafter, which I barely remember, and my Christian journey started.

I was asked to recall this story occasionally, mostly as a child or teenager.  It became an event that I still remember, almost 35 years later, even if fuzzy around the edges.  Over the following 30+ years the most consistent part of my Christian walk, was my inconsistency.  My family stayed connected to church for another 5 years until I was an early teenager.  After a painful church split and several hurt feelings, I remember our family not returning to church.  I started going to youth group occasionally with a friend.  Not as much for the lessons or my devotion to God, but more because there were cute girls and the youth group did fun things like water and snow ski.  I enjoyed the activities, but lost the point of church.

When I joined the military church became unimportant.  I spent the better part of my first 3 years in the Air Force enjoying my new freedom away from my parents.  I remember thinking about God and feeling guilty from time to time, but always reminded myself that I was saved and could come back and ask forgiveness later with no hard feelings.  I also vaguely remember at one point reading some books about other religions wondering what else was out there.  I married young at 20 years old and attended a Lutheran church on the major Christian holidays because my wife was Lutheran.  Lutheran by family, not necessarily by practice or personal commitment.  After our second son was born I decided that we better get right with God if we were going to raise these kids properly.  I convinced her why Baptist was better than Lutheran because of the emphasis on a personal relationship with God instead of just a Sunday, Christmas, or Easter relationship.  After all, that’s what I was taught, and it just made logical sense.

I need to back track a bit.  At this point, I can remember looking back on my childhood and teen years realizing that I was a Baptist for the same reason my wife was a Lutheran.  That’s what my family chose.  We had attended a couple of churches and I heard the same message.  Our denomination was right and others had it wrong.  We would be more favored in heaven than others because we were the “right religion.”  I remember being 14 or 15 years old and getting up the guts to question my dad about this concept.  I remember sitting on the couch, terrified, and asking how it was possible that our small little church was right, and all of the millions of other people were wrong.  My dad was an intimidating man.  He did not like to be questioned in his leadership.  He entertained me for a few minutes and tried to explain and show me scriptures of why we were right. I kept asking, “But what if someone else reads it different and they’re right?”  Finally he told me that I needed to stop questioning and learn to accept that not understanding but believing anyway is what faith is.

So there I was, young, married, two children, and a wife that had never been around the Baptist religion.  She started asking me questions about why.  I didn’t have the answers so I fell back on the standard answer of having a personal relationship and having faith.  The more she asked questions, I knew I had to call in the big dogs and had the pastor come over to help her understand.  Through conversation, he determined that she had unknowingly been saved at one point because she had actually asked God to help her live her life.  Therefore, he told her, she had faith without even knowing it.  I was amazed at his ability to guide her and she was proud that she had been saved on her own without a church to tell her.  She was baptized soon thereafter and we were on our way to getting right with God.  We moved around with the military a bit and found new churches each time we moved.

I was into the motions of church.  I even helped teach adult Sunday school or bible studies.  I was young but I loved knowledge.  That thirst for knowledge kept me studying and learning.  Over the years I kept attending churches, for the most part, with some gaps in between.  The common theme I noticed was that questioning the theology of a church did not do me any favors.  In my adulthood, I changed churches 3 different times because I began to question a particular theology and the pastor didn’t like my questioning, relationships would change and attending became awkward.  I eventually stopped questioning the churches, became less personally involved, and would quietly leave and find a different one.  I switched between big churches, small churches, Baptist, Non-denominational, Assembly of God, etc.  The common theme was that I never felt at home, yet never really understood why.  I would blame the size of the church, age of the congregation, wrong music, sermon or lesson content, too much leadership, not enough leadership, too many activities, not enough activities, too formal or not formal enough.  The good news is that there was always another church to try.

I even endured going through pain with churches.  I remember the pastor of one particular church regularly sharing some gossip with us about other people in the church.  He would not actually sit and gossip, but instead say something like, “Just between us, so and so is struggling with,” or “Please pray for so and so because of such and such, but keep it private.” It dawned on me that if he would share that with us, then I’m sure our private conversations were being shared.  When I questioned this, I found that I was questioning his integrity and after asking a few other members I was the outsider that didn’t belong anymore.  Time to move again.

Probably the biggest hurt I dealt with, in a church, was when I was part of a large church and met every week with a small men’s group for breakfast with one of the pastors.  We’d meet once per week for breakfast and share struggles or encouragement in our life.  I was going through a very difficult time in my marriage and would share, seeking advice and help. The group would pray for me almost every week.  The day after my wife and I separated, I called this pastor and left a message to call me back.  I did this three different times over a two week period and never heard back.  I found out several months later that the study group and pastor were told I had cheated on my wife and abandoned her, one of my sons, and turned the other son against her.  It wasn’t true, but I’m not getting into that story here.  The point is that I reached out and needed help, and even if that story was true, isn’t that all the more reason that this pastor or someone from the group should have reached out?  I was beyond hurt.  So much so that I didn’t just walk away from church, I ran and jumped feet first back into the party life.

I remarried and my wife and I cleaned up our party life and started attending church together.  We had similar beliefs so we didn’t have to argue about what to look for.  Both of us, for different reasons, typically felt unsatisfied and we kept searching around.  In two years, I think we taste-tested at least six churches, and probably more.  Four years ago my wife and I made a lifestyle choice to leave the city and plant roots in rural America.  Realizing that there weren’t a lot of churches to choose from out here, we settled on a small church close to home.  The people were open and welcoming.  What I liked the most was that the attenders seemed to be a mix of beliefs.  Even though it has a denomination, I call the church the local “non-Lutheran, non-Catholic community church.”  Because the predominant religion in this region is either Lutheran or Catholic, having a mixed body of attenders that do not fit into either of those meant a good mix of ideas.

I remember a sermon preached that I had heard numerous times in my life in different formats.  Dedicate time to spend with God each day.  This particular sermon had a guest speaker video that recalled his “rocking chair moments” with God every morning and how those rocking chair moments changed his life.  I don’t remember the speaker, but I remember walking away from the sermon not thinking much.  Unlike the numerous times I had heard that message throughout my life, this message nagged at me for days.  Almost a week later, I succumbed to the feeling, set my alarm clock 15 minutes early and started waking up just to pray.  At first I had no idea how I was going to fill 15 minutes of prayer time.  I started by reading all of the prayer requests on the back of the church bulletin.  I did that for a few days and felt invigorated.  It was easy to fill 15 minutes.  There was one request I didn’t understand.  “Pray for the protection of Israel.”  Why?  First of all, you should know that I was raised to believe that Israel was no longer physical but replaced with the “spiritual Israel,” also known as the bigger body of Christian believers.  I didn’t know it at the time, but this is called Replacement Theology.  After a few days of praying for Israel because the bulletin said to, I finally stopped and said to God, “OK, God, why should I pray for the protection of Israel?  If they really are chosen, then you’re going to take care of them.  If they aren’t chosen anymore and are meant to be punished for killing your son, then why would I pray for them?”  This happened for a couple of days.  Then, unlike anything that had ever happened to me before, I felt an urge to open my bible and search.  I found Acts 1:6, “Lord, will you at this time restore the kingdom to Israel?” (ESV).  Reading that, at the moment, I was stunned.  I saw the words and they seemed to be bold and highlighted on the page.  I realized that the chosen Israel was physical.  I spent the next few days praying and reading.  Finding scripture that pointed to Israel as the chosen nation and race.  The scripture changed and I couldn’t explain it.

A lot happened over a few weeks.  I don’t remember it all, but I remember talking to my wife about this and she was surprised I would have ever believed Israel was not intended literal.  At one point she directed me to a lady at church that she had heard talk about Israel often, and in reference to prophecy.  I told her about my experience and she had tears in her eyes.  She answered a few questions, and offered me a book or CD with some teaching to point me in the right direction.  I called to talk to a trusted acquaintance whom was a traveling minister.  I didn’t know him real well, but I had heard him speak a few times and had spent enough time with him to know he had the gift of discernment.  I was relying on him to explain these new thoughts I had.  I think we had almost a two hour conversation and he encouraged me to continue learning.

I kept my new found beliefs mostly hidden.  Our family was invited to another family’s house for a Friday night fellowship.  Just a few people from the church getting together on Fridays for dinner and fellowship.  After a few times attending dinner on Fridays, the wife of that couple chose to share that for many years she had been studying and practicing a more Jewish perspective of scripture.  I almost fell out of my dinner chair.  I think most of the table was just nodding and thinking how nice of her to share.  I had chills.  I had been feeling the same thing for weeks when reading scripture.  I felt weird, alone, and afraid to share with anyone.  From that point forward we continued to attend this Friday night fellowship and the fellowship morphed into a few regular attenders that all had a heart for Israel and a few had deep interests to study the Jewish perspective on scripture and how to apply that to our lives today.

I have long since come out of the spiritual closet and anyone semi-close to me knows the basics of my position.  That caused some challenges and some discomfort, especially at a small rural, conservative church.  I don’t believe I am supposed to find a new church.  I believe God wants me to stay put for now, be humble, love others, build relationships, be part of the community, and live out my beliefs with honesty.

As far as I know, I am not Jewish, and do not intend to convert.  However, I feel such a strong pull and connection towards Jewish understanding and tradition.  I continue to take the Sabbath off and use it to study, relax, and spend time as a family.  At the time of writing this, I do not observe a formal Sabbath yet, but I hope to respectfully incorporate some Jewish traditions into our family Sabbath observance and the biblical festivals over the coming months.

I believe the scriptures were written from a Jewish perspective.  Every one of them.  I believe that Israel as a nation and the Jewish people as a group were and are chosen by God and were given an unconditional covenant.  I believe that I, as a Gentile have a place in God’s kingdom.  I believe that God provided us, as mankind, with a set of instructions on how to live life.  These instructions include clear directions on how to love Him and how to love our neighbor.  Some call this the Old Testament Law, the Law of Moses, or the Old Covenant.  I call it God’s word.  I believe these instructions apply to all of us, but not all instructions apply to all people.  God gave specific instructions to Israel as a nation, Jews as a people, even special roles to specific tribes, and even instructions for Gentiles and other nations.

This blog is my forum to process my thoughts.  I am learning.  I hope to continue to learn every day.  I hope to honor God through my words.